Tuesday, March 23, 2010

I Am Here

Okay, so I'm sporadic!

My focus has been all over the place lately. Certain experiences and situations have shown me how tenuous the things you take for granted can be. Nothing major - mainly to do with one of my jobs, honestly. But it has me considering the future, and the path I want to be on, and what it'll take to put me on it. And a big damn part of that - maybe all of it, in fact - is my own attitudes, which I'm working on changing, and that need to change if I ever want to get anywhere. I'm used to temporary upswings followed by inevitable downswings. That just isn't gonna cut it anymore.

The upside? I'm feeling positive. Like I'm realizing things I've missed before. Like I'm growing up a lot. I hope I'm right, and I hope it's a lasting change.

I feel I have a lot to write... And I honestly don't have the time to do it right now. So maybe expect a big ol' update in the next few days when I've got some more spare time.

I still exist. That's a start.

2 comments:

  1. hey
    glad to read from you.
    i like this post. it's a side of you that dare i say it, is fresh :)
    i'm really curious to know what the plan may be, but for now, kudos on what you have done and decided. cheers friend :)

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  2. Thanks, Mel. :D
    Perhaps I'm just being pretentious, but I feel like I'm developing my own "life philosophy" these days. Which of course will likely change over time, but I'm giving myself some daily reminders that seem very true and are helping me a lot right now - my mood and attitudes in particular.
    Some of the things I'm feeling right now directly contradict what I've felt/believed in the past... so at least it feels fresh! ;)

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